Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be? (Uh-huh)
So many losing hope in those dreams that they-
Walking past the homeless in a Rolex
Just got off the stage on the Today Show and I basically felt soulless

Years go by and I keep saying I'm gon use my phone less
But I should just be phoneless
Ignorance is bliss and so is being underground cause it was fun when we were known less
Sorry that's cliche I know I'm so blessed

But Jason keeps on telling me say yes and truth be told I know he knows best
But I don't want do no press
I've seen enough of me on this lil screen
I've become so vain and insecure bout everything

I feel all this pressure to live up to what they tell me I'm gon be
So I Isolate myself, you can't Help me it's on me
I'm hiding any sign of weakness from my guys, I don't want em second guessing with me
Nemo said to keep my foot on necks cause I can't em let em just forget me

But the brags in my raps are getting less and less convincing
So I'd rather just...
Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?
So many losing hope in those dreams that they-

I wrote that first verse in Denver
Back in September
It's January now
And I'm feeling like myself again

I got Angel back in here I need his help again
I'm Taking time away but wondering what a healthy helping is
Fuck it they gon check for me
I tell myself

And tell my friends
Avoiding any talks about the elephant
Chalking up the hate to jealousy and just embellishments
But deep down I find myself wondering if the people that write about me are right about me

And I wonder if my exes are oversharing cause they know a lot about me
I'm a long way from Shelby County, I been thru some local tension, heard talks of a healthy
Bounty
Sober and focused I cannot walk down no deli alleys

I still got the fellas round me, I love em and tell em proudly
My mama needs help adjusting, my father needs help accounting
I'm lookin out heavens window I know that there's hell around me
Wonder, oh, why this ever had to be?

So many losing hope in those dreams that the